Okay, shicheng’s coming up real soon and there’s less than 23 days till our first paper I think I’m damn screwed oh gosh. Need buck up like crazzzzzy and oops I better go off now! Good to have my wordpress to blog out stuff where nobody visits hehe I like this! & I think I’m weird.. oh well.

Anyway, Idk if I’ve mentioned this before but CO teachers/seniors always tell us that 10 years down the road, the friends you’ll be keeping in touch with are mostly from CO hahaha. I really hope that’s true because it’s just so comfortable and so epic with all the crazy people around, and I really like how (almost) everyone can click and it feels so much like Family with them awwww :’)

Anyway, it’s really time to sort out my priorities, well with this crazy week coming right up ahead, & with my already wasted weekends…… I really don’t know how to cope lolololol. Cramps wasted the whole of my Saturday as I spent $7 on a cup of coffee that I drank only 3 mouthfuls and puked it all out afterwards HAHA, $6 on panadols which I already have at home, and $10 for the cabfare home which was just a waste of money argh. But I caught the match between Liverpool & Arsenal with Jyh Howe and Zhenghui at Macs at night!! Which was rather exciting cos of the atmosphere at Macs and everything hehe!!

& I had CCO prac which was rather torturous because the new songs are damn hard arghhhh. Don’t know how I’m going to cope but…. we’ll see how things go eh? After that had an awesome time playing ball with the CO people cause Gerome & Yiqin wanted to prac for interclass haha. Everything was so epic hahahahaha Yiqin went crazy again LOL. Brandon was super epic when he was sajiao-ing to Yiqin HAHAHA. “WHY MUST YOU RUIN EVERYTHINGGGG?!” HAHAHAHA then went to have dinner at Macs and finally went home with muscle aches HAHA. Poor Yiqin played ball for 9 hours, that crazy boy hahaha he was super red and it was quite funny ^^

Okay I really hope no one reads my wordpress, but if you do just let me know yeah? HAHAHAHA.

Anyway the past two weeks have really been helluva week. Had parliamentary dinner performance + rehearsal last last week, and SYF presentation performance + rehearsal last week. So I thought I could finally catch some rest from CO but nope, there’s another performance this coming Thurs for CCTV to film or smth? Not sure about the details but yup! On top of all the performances and practices, there’s also so much to do for school work!! The wake-up call from CT doesn’t seem to have a long-term effect, which is realllll bad so I hope I can find my motivation soon

Oh, I’ve also took over Jieting’s tuition classes for 2 weeks while she’s busy attending University camps haha! That has been really stressing me out Really don’t like this sorta pressure but oh well, I guess I need to grow up one day yeah?

Anyway the only redeeming factor about last week was Centrestage with the CO people!! Didn’t really have time to order dinner so we were like eating while queueing outside the PAC haha. They missed out an order so I gave my dinner to Xiangrong who was probably much more hungry than me hahaha. Being with the bunch of people really cheers me up somehow. Was really hungry after the performance cos I didn’t have lunch AND dinner so I really felt like fainting and then I just sat on the floor Really sorry my friends LOL I shouldn’t have thrown my file on the floor in…. desperate hunger HAHA. :\

It was really crowded at Macs so we decided to head to Paya Lebar Macs for supper!! Thanks to Yiqin’s very smart idea haha but apparently Payalebar Macs closes at 1130 and it was super hot in there Hahahaha but at least I got to witness Tay Yiqin’s crazy epic moments hahahah he was rlly so annoying I think he was drunk HAHA but it was really funny at the same time ^^

After that I took bus home w Melvin and he walked me back home cause it was almost 12 haha. Really v v v thankful for all my amazing friends around me!! Veron, whom I can tell everyth and anyth to, whom I can really be myself when I around w her because we know each other so so so well it’s hard not to be myself w her ^^ And Melvin, for always sending me home when it gets too late and for being such an awesome friend and for having all the endless conversations with Yuhua, for being such a fun and epic friend to hang around with, for all your epic comments and also your wise and deep words. And all my lovely juniors and of course the SZB-BFFs who never fail to entertain me with daily whatsapp conversations!

“Why you so sad today?”
“Huh I don’t know why, I very emo but I cannot find the reason why.”
“Is it because you can’t find the reason why?”

Sudden realisation -cue light bulb- HEHE. Yuhua solves the mysteries to why people always say they feel emo without knowing why. It is because they can’t find the reason why!!!!! Hehe maybe it doesn’t make sense to y’all but wtv it was a moment of realisation for us at that time hehe

Little things in life keep me going :’)
Thank you my friends <3 <3 <3

Have you ever felt the guilt after arguing with your parents?
Seeing them look so sad & yet it is your own fault.
Ever felt like you wanted to buy so many things,
& arguing w your parents just ’cause they didn’t wanna get you that?
& blaming them that they never buy you what you wanted,
& realizing that they’ve actually bought you whatever you wanted?

I suppose there’s nothing I could say to actually express this guilt in me for like the whole 15 years of life huh.
& There’s nothing much I could do too.